He is retarded. There are things he understands. He can get along on his own OK. The doctors say his condition is deteriorating. Last year he understood this, now it isn't clear. He has never touched a woman. He knows he never will. He eagerly awaits the day he no longer feels the attraction to them. As it is right now, he hurts so much, so deeply, that he cries and loses control of himself. He has caused so many embarrassing moments for his family. They don't know what his problem is, why all of a sudden he'll start to cry and scream. They can't take him out anymore. He is smart enough to know he is not like the rest of them. He waits for his deep pain to end.